That's the way it is

I hate that sentence in the title.

The one on the picture instead is nice; "It's not easy for the genius". You know, they know too much, the understand too much.

That's the way it is. It's not easy for them.

I have no idea what I'm talking about.

Each time

No I don't feel like grey rainy days, going to the museum doing school work; walking speaking politics or anything else talking looking listening drinking tea or alcohol pretending smiling making up hair dos dancing going to concerts photograph draw paint move watch movies calm down think positive wet plants studying going to university going to work complaining being reading sunny days snow winter summer autumn spring I don't feel like that

I only want to go to movies sleep listen to music look through the window and go back to sleep

eight sundays, seven swans

I'm on holiday. It feels claustrophobic already; all my friends are travelling or at home in other towns.

Today I took my camera for a little walk. Saw nothing at all. But it feels fine for now. Nothing at all, everything is so slow. I can stay in bed all day just reading; finnish reading three books a day; spend purposeless moments sitting, looking out at the clouds through my window and listen to Coldplay or Sufjan Stevens.

Secret society acts

Nobody's safe.

Postcards from far away

I'm starting to get a bit tired again.

Breakfast, in bed please. Coldplay always seems to make me want to run down the streets and shout something deep about life, I do not know why.

autumnwinter

I've had an infernal inspiration for fashion lately and I've been drowning under my schoolwork and I've slept too few hours and I'm tired. So I haven't been posting.

Oh and I was also kidnapped by a strangest secret astronomy society. Trust me.

I love autumn. I think I should take out my candles.

Everybody's gonna love today

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Tomorrow!

white fairies & little garden

Here's me and my friend Lily from my other blog.

I love summer

When it's not too hot and colours are sweet and it rains and the rooms are full of light. And you get to sleep, you can sleep the whole day if you want to.

don't go into the forest deep

Today I was really annoyed when I woke up. I went out to sunbathe and it started raining.

Today the whole world is rumbling lightly now and then, it's the realization I think, this is the strangest day ever.
There is some sort of an inspiration but everything's somehow restless.
I sent a postcard to a record shop in Helsinki, I hope the owner likes it, because I really like that record shop. I think I'm going to stalk that owner, hey that's an awesome idea!

Oh, and I noticed that donkeys are lovely.

me + my place

Yes I love it. You'll get new pictures as soon as I'll learn to photograph like this. I'll try my best.

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I'll hire some random James or Jeeves to drive my car so I can sit, listen to music and be peaceful because the landscapes go by without me doing anything. I think that's exactly the reason I like sitting in a car or a train. Moving from a place to another, going somewhere far. But I don't like going back home. In the train, between these two little towns it is so depressing, it's dark and everyone has left the train already but me.

kai käyn perinteen mukaan istumassa

Here

My summer has been quite lovely. I've been traveling a lot: visited Sodankylä's film festival and then Helsinki. I love that city. Today I came home after a lovely weekend, staying here just for a while and then I'm moving to my own apartment on thursday. I wish and think it's going to be awesome. I'll get some photos then.

L'été

Summer holiday. No bewilderment yet. Party yesterday.

Everything is so simple

by Matty Franklin
In this land people think they've closed their thoughts safely inside of them but they really show them so clearly, you just have to look.

Remember the bananas

Holiday is close. There is going to be a hugest bewilderment when it begins.

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I think I'm trying to put up some sort of a project, pro-jectus here. Well this is quite weird. What is going on?


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I know this escapism might be a bit too easy. It just makes me feel happier and happier all the time.

Somebody said: "Be patient"

But when I turned around I noticed it was me myself.

I've been sleeping this weekend. It's just lovely to wake up in the morning, stretch and go back to sleep, or then just lie in the bed and breathe. I love summer.

She came home for christmas

Today I thought about moving abroad. It would be nice to go out to Berlin or Paris or Amsterdam perhaps to see the world and get some experience. I want to move to Helsinki or Tampere at least. However, now I have to decide what I want to work with.


This is just a quick photo I took in the morning because my hair looked lovely. I felt quite pretty all day and it was nice of course.


I've been very inspired today. I took my watercolours and painted a bit. Just something nice and colourful, nothing too artistic.



Maybe I'll be drifting forever, maybe someone reads my story and wants to be me one day and I'll think: "Oh dear."

Pythagoras, we love you

Bon Iver - Blood Bank.

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I love physics but I decided I'm too tired to study it. When I'm old I'll read some interesting books about the universe. Or maybe in the summer, when I have plenty of time.

There are too many things to do in life!

Now I want to write a song called Pythagoras, we love you.

just wanted to tell you

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I must get these glasses! Too bad I don't need them really. I'll have to stare at my computer until my eyesight is spoiled.

I'm really ill, don't know if I can even go to school tomorrow.

Lump sum

I didn't quite know what to write about. I'm having one of these weird periods again; I'm very inspired but I can't create anything. I've been so uncreative that I've done my maths homework. Something is wrong with me. I'm ill, though.


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First I thought I could write about home but then lost all my thoughts about the subject. However, I think home is a place where all the restlessness disappears.


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I would like to live in the city. I would like to live somewhere far from civilization. I need people around me and I need peace and nature too, but I hate small towns. Such a dilemma!

And I think I should make up something nice to do. There is some sort of change going on.

Jag väntar på ett kraftverk (mér vantar kraftaverk)

Lately I've had a lot of interesting thoughts but I just can't write them down. I actually have no idea what I've been thinking of.

In a sick way spring is beautiful, I love the birches and frozen puddles and people getting a bit happier. Holiday is getting closer and I can sleep for a while, at last.

How I spend my days

They escape like rabbits from my hands.

Bjargvættur, bjartur

We are running all the way through the cities.


Feeling terribly small here under the eyes of God, as you can see.


That coffee was disgusting.



Some deep discussions
and then less deep.
Sitting in a car.
Wondering where to go next.
Shopping like girls do.
Writing cards in a cafeteria
for those three persons
who came in my mind first.

Planning to come back again.

And I'm in a car
I don't know where we are
headed for.

hello friend

I'm going to travel tomorrow, I'll visit Helsinki with one of my dearest friends. Eight + eight hours sitting in a car. I like it because the feeling there is something peaceful and nice.

via we heart it, from here
But partly I don't like it, since I've started to be afraid of those high speeds they're traveling with.


I'm coming heim saturday, probably with a bunch of new photos taken in a moving car.

yttektyk nillahup

Today was a fine day.

Although two of my friends are sick. And I know I'm going to be sick too.

However, after school I went to the hairdresser's. She just cut the ends of my hair a bit, but it looks quite different and it's nice. After that I had about half an hour before my bus would leave. I walked through the little centre of my town to a bridge. I stood on it, stared at the old pover station of Koivukoski and ate some karelian pie I had with me. I thought about something great.


I realized that we can not create anything new actually. I mean us humans. New atoms can't be created by us. I mean that we have to have something where to start from to create something else. You can't build a house out of nothing. It means that all these thing crated by industrialization. I think it's awesome. There is a meaning with what we are doing.

I think spring is coming next week.

Ég þakka

It was my 17th birthday party last night. I had a great evening with my friends.


This painting is made by one of my friends.


My new Icelandic dictionary, Swedish flag -card and me.



I also got some useful art stuff, Moomin-book, notebook and nice rubber boots. And a card, which I didn't first quite understand (Its thinking was complicated!).

I think I'm going to paint now and think something deep.

Viðrar vel til hádegis

Holiday's over. But it's alright. It is time to go to sleep now.


I think I just had one of the best weekends ever. The great adventure and some just being, waiting for the darkness in the middle of a clearing. And what else.


My new favourite breakfast is here.

The killer rabbit (which is not as bad as brown hare, thank God) had visited our backyard last night. I was amazed. I had a short adventure today too and I stood where the rabbit had run. You can see a picture of this dangerous creature on my mug in the picture, by the way.

Blá nótt; ég er að drukkna syndir.

So I went out. I walked. Then there was this disappearing moment of realization but I didn't catch it! Where did it go! I ran and I didn't care about people staring. Then I stopped and the forest shouted at me, run run and so I ran back and;

I went back home because I am a coward.

One day. Now I want to sleep.


Iceland is calling me.

Susanna Majuri - Mykines

I am superhero

I'm somehow distressed. Don't know why. I'm going to see a Finnish horror movie Sauna tonight. Maybe it will make my brain relax.


However, I'm feeling quite fine right now. It's holiday. I have a new plant in my room. And everything's quite fine! I'm trying to learn to understand that.

Some things are too difficult to be described with words.

For me that means most of the things, because I have a lot of problems with my existence and such. I really feel I don't exist. All the time.

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The first thing is this. I don't exist. I don't know if you guys exist there anywhere you are or are you just part of my imagination. I don't feel the earth, I can't feel the universe as a material creature.

Jag tänker alltså finns jag.


Mysteries are the second thing. I can't explain the mystery I'm talking or thinking about. I can see it in my mind clearly, but I don't know what it is. Maybe it's the point in mysteries. I don't know anything about them. I think something green, though.



Mitt egna sinne är mystisk, ingenmansland, obefintlig

existerande.

Adventure

Today I and my friend had an adventure! We trekked around the primeval forest, heard the ninja-killer brown hare, walked on dangerously thin ice and waded through boggy snow.














Usually there is something behind windows.